Suffocating under the words of sorrow

die die die

2007-04-10T22:11:00.000-07:00

hello everyone, as you know im a private candidate for o levels, and know what, i didnt pay for the examination fees, and i just send them an email to appeal, and they havent replied, god be with me, i havent been doing what i need too recently, and i need to wake up my idea. hope they'll grant my appeal. oh man. and im bored too!

lots of love,

mark

2007-03-29T14:05:00.000-07:00

some pictures of recent gigs.

its been a long time!

2007-03-29T13:59:00.000-07:00

hello peeps, its been a long time since i last blogged! like a really long time. oh well, been caught up with alot of recent happenings, back to some old habits, not good. but at least im still alive, broken hearted here and there, but there's still the happy times. but im happy now, thats all that matters, played a few recent gigs, in march hols and one like recently. kristie's 16th birthday party, pardon me if i spelt her name wrongly. that gig was just fun la, although there wasnt many people. we still enjoyed ourselves! than there was dance dance after the small gig. it was fun, cara's grandpa just passed away, condolences to her family, kept her company in like two days. i enjoyed it though. well, pretty much happenings in life, but I LOVE IT! good night people!

lots of love! mark.

2007-02-09T09:33:00.000-08:00

for cheryl!

2007-02-06T02:54:00.000-08:00

a day of jamming, The Arrant End.

2007-01-24T20:40:00.000-08:00

hello homies! im bored, and i just came back from school! school is damn fun la, new friends, new things, everything new la. but i gotta concentrate on studies, and you people will think its like the first time mark is saying this la, i know i know. but i can do it! dont play a fool. and i LOVE THE ARRANT END! haha! bye people. cheers!

2007-01-15T22:21:00.000-08:00

2007-01-12T10:07:00.000-08:00

yesterday night was fun! as in like, thursday night la. went out to town in the evening in a fucking heavy rain, got pretty wet, met amanda and lynn at taka, but lynn left with her friend, so it was marcus amanda and me. Miss amanda suggested to play pool but she didnt want to play when we reached cine, so it was marcus and i who were playing. not long after that, mr luke joined us. played till nine plus than went to eat our late dinner at pasta mania, poor marcus was starving, than lynn came back to meet us at pasta mania. went to get alcohol from 7-11 and went to taka to drink, haha. it was raining still so we could find a nice place, and than we went home. haha. after drinking la. haha, im tired bye!

2007-01-12T09:59:00.000-08:00

the night out with justin,marcus,lynn, amanda and me!

so much for being brothers!

2007-01-07T09:03:00.000-08:00

clubbing yesterday was pretty screwed up, it was supposed to be kirans birthday thingy, than, some shit happened, fuck more like a lot of shit happened, friendships might have ended, or maybe it did end, i dont know man. but mainly, i hae my bestest friend fatthew chua! and emu! and arrant end! haha, he chose the girl over his us, the one he called 'brother'. BROTHERS BEFORE WHORES MAN!!!

long lost mark!

2007-01-03T08:44:00.000-08:00

hahaha, sorry i've not been updating! im too lazy and busy with things lately. things has been good, some ups and downs, which is pretty normal. its a new year man, so lets all start a fresh! kiran's birthday is coming up really soon, and we're going to party man! and i still have donns invitation to her birthday which im still considering. actually, i forgot what i've been up too lately la. haha. too busy, i just know that i had a wonderful christmas, i think, and a great new year. okay im lazy to type, bye!

hell of a crazy night!

2006-12-09T09:33:00.000-08:00

yesterday was hetty's birthday party, man, i screwed it up, my emotions took over me! im so fucking sorry hetty! and nicole! i'll do whatever i can to repay you! i have to report back to jurong HQ on the 19th, for some shit, things arent going right for me at the very moment, i hope god will be with me at this moment, i've neglected him alot, i regret, i dont know what to do now, i'll just keep praying, that he'll save my soul!

There goes my hero!

2006-12-01T09:55:00.000-08:00

hello people! its been a very long time since i last blogged. the past few days we're pretty good, just that there was some ups and downs. its quite sad la, but what to do. people just come and go like that. why! but life goes on, the strong survives! got my new tattoo, and been really playing losts of soccer. to catch up for the times i've lost out. i dont feel like typing much. haha. bye!

FUCK YOU BITCH!!

2006-11-05T08:46:00.000-08:00

BI***! WHY CANT YOU FUCKING TAKE RESPONSIBILITY!! YOU'RE THE FIRST 18 YEAR OLD GIRL THAT I'VE SEEN SO IRRESPONSIBLE, YOU BLAME EVERYONE ELSE EXCEPT YOURSELF! WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS THINKING BOUT YOOURSELF ONLY, HAVE YOU GIVEN A THOUGHT ABOUT ANY OF US YOU USED TO CALL FRIENDS OR COUSINS, AND SAY I LOVE YOU TO US!! WHAT IS GOING THROUGH YOUR FUCKING MIND I DONT KNOW! STOP HURTING EVERYONE!!

I LOVE MARIE BENINGER!

2006-11-02T09:47:00.000-08:00

I LOVE YOU BABY CAKES!

The emo day!

2006-10-29T08:57:00.000-08:00

today was a fucking emo day, i made a promise with hetty and i didnt keep my word cause i was drinking yesterday. im sorry hetty! hmm, after that was a terrible, hetty found out some shity stuff! about donn and hetty, i dont wanna explain what happen, but it was something really disappointing, i had to see andy break down so badly, and it isnt the first time! hetty, i really pity her and i feel sorry for her! why! why didnt i stop it, but i really didnt know how it happened and why! i understand how hetty and andy are feeling, for andy i've been through this kinda thing, but for hetty, i just can understand. i hope they'll be smart and enjoy themselves, and not do anything stupid, i'll be there for them any time, and wont let them be alone! im a going to make a stand to something, so this someone, im not gonna take sides and besides i think you're in the wrong, you made this mistakes once and yet you do it again, how can you break two people heart when you know whats going on. i just kept quiet willing you will realise that you're in the wrong.

The arrant end's gig!

2006-10-23T02:09:00.000-07:00

The arrant ends gg yesterday was awesome, paul twohill, sang the last song with them, he was a star there la, but i pity him, he looked like he was suffering, haha, with all the muhds crowing around him, not letting him go. but mainly, i cared about was the band, they played well, the original was, awesome, but if chai would remember the words and not look at the paper it would be great! aw well, after gig, we all went to eat together, the fucking group was huge la, it was crazy, but in the end it was only, ben, issey,emu, justin, hetty,donn, nic, pantat,jo,tessa, daryl,rebecca, andy, matthew and me! shaunna and jaime joined us later when we finished dinner, dinner was good man, we all we were having a jolly good time! after dinner all of them were singing songs, choir what, cool. hahaha. and than pantat left, so we all decided to leave, and we walked jo home, and waited for everyone's buses to come and than, ben, issey, matthew and me took a cab home. and we had fun, yesterday was a fun day!

2006-10-17T10:21:00.000-07:00

hello everyone, i dont know my status now, as in i dont know where i am! haha. nic, jo hetty, emu, issey, ben, and all of you, especially my baby girl, i miss being around you most of the time! haha. i wanna be with you all again, we'll be together soon darlings! i miss you all once again, we'll be united back again! i love you all! see you darlings!

yesterday was such a bitch day! thanks leonard!

2006-10-10T20:15:00.000-07:00

Thank you Leonard for all the shit you've done to us, and thanks for telling us that the fucking god damn house is your friends, thanks for making me the stupid one that i have to be blamed for breaking the fucking lock, you're such an honorable friend! you've lost all my trust for you, and you'll always be Leonard CHEE BYE! bitch! im gonna get the worst sentence thatn you are, thank you so much! fuck you!

2006-09-26T22:18:00.000-07:00

pictures at feast day! finally cheryl! haha. i didnt take the stupid spastic pictures that you took of me! oh well, ben had most of the pictures of himself and people we dont know! haha. its okay!

laid to rest

2006-09-26T11:39:00.000-07:00

im tired. after soccer today at the park with the park boys again. well its fun to play with them la, damn exciting. haha. anyways! i pierced my smiley two days ago! and pierced for kevin his smiley yesterday! haha. it came out straight man! it was pretty easy though. im waiting to get my septum piercing, and my eyebrow, and nose bridge! im not sure bout my nipple cause im playing alot of soccer these days! and my dick, im still thinking about it. haha! see ya'll! cheers!

back home!

2006-09-25T08:54:00.000-07:00

im and dead tired after a shit ass good day of fun soccer at the park, with the park boys! haha. they're damn good la, play damn fast, we'll i scored three goals though! haha, i dont know how well i did la. but i think i did alright! gonna stay up late tonight! see ya'll people!

finally suspended!

2006-09-24T20:14:00.000-07:00

im officially suspended, not exactly suspended though, but yeah, im waiting for time to pass, than im going over to ben's place, to meet him, slack at his place than we'll be going to the park at selaseh, for soccer! good shit! they're awesome man. fast and tough players. it'll be fun! and i want the pictures from feast day dinner CHERYL TAN!! better send me! im going to sleep now. haha bye!

at ben's after feast day!

2006-09-24T08:58:00.000-07:00

At ben's place after feast day dinner, i dont have pics of feast day dinner but i'll get it soon! haha. feast that was not that bad tough. we saw some fucking blacks trying to step power, dont even try la, i should have told, but aw well, we drank after the dinner at ben's and these are the few that i took! haha. issey was high! haha

2006-09-22T10:53:00.000-07:00

toilets at NUS are pretty clean, and it smells nice! haha i love the mirrors

my heroin!

2006-09-22T10:42:00.000-07:00

i have no idea why i put the title as my heroin, haha, well cause i was like listening to this song and im doing this post! haha. well, today was quite a stupid day, got my lip pierced in the centre third time today! ha. and than the guys went back home, after that matthew met me to go for out job application at spinelli, they asked us to come back today around 2 or 3 pm. and than i saw cheryl koh. haha. she's tall. yupp. than went back to good old hougang, and saw clement, and some of his friends, clement is a weak drinker! haha. or maybe he's just putting up an act to get the girl. haha! than i went home and now im here and now im going to bed! good night people!

2006-09-22T10:38:00.000-07:00

cam whoring in the car! mike's birthday.

BALLS TO YOU!!

2006-09-20T06:07:00.000-07:00

MR TAN YOU SUCK! YOU'RE SUCH A FUCKING TWO FACE BASTARD! ACT LIKE YOU CARE FOR ME! I DONT NEED YOUR FAKE SHIT, STAY OUT OF MY FUCKING LIFE, STOP CALLING MY MUM LIKE YOU WANNA WOO HER! I'LL KILL YOU SOON, JUST WAIT FOR GRADUATION NIGHT, THE GREATEST NIGHT OF YOUR LIFE YOU FUCKING SON OF A BITCH! DONT BOTHER ON BEING GOOD TERMS WITH ME! FUCK OFF!! DONT WORRY, YOU'LL SUFFER FROM TMR ONWARDS!! FUCK YOUR BITCH LIFE!!

2006-09-19T02:48:00.000-07:00

damn!

2006-09-12T05:48:00.000-07:00

fuck shit! its been a hell of a long time since i blogged balls! well, my days are pretty good, days in school left are out numbered! yet im still have problems with the teachers, well, i just cant wait to get out of there, but i know i'll miss all the shit i do!! balls man! haha, well, shafiq's birthday chalet is coming up soon, really looking forward to that, its gonna be hell of a fun thing! im gonna end here, so take care ya'll, im gonna miss school, but what the heck, haha, cheers!

2006-08-29T05:54:00.000-07:00

okay, it was a pretty long time since i blogged, hmm, these past few days has been good i think? but i've been feeling lots of pain in my body, mainly my chest, smoking too much? maybe, but who cares! haha. so i cant remember what happened these past few days. haha, but i know im just very very very bored! well, see ya'll around! cheers!

The debut performance was good!

2006-08-21T08:02:00.000-07:00

The debut performance yesterday at alyssa's place was pretty good! well done bandies! we couldnt hear ally as we were lacking in some of the equipment, and poor hetty didnt have a damn mike, thats sad, well, we'll practice more and hopefully we'll stick together and go far! love you guys! take care see ya'l soon! bye!

Fucking ass!

2006-08-16T09:18:00.000-07:00

Some fucking ass just spoilt my day! childish and lame fucker! talk so much! only know how to disturb girls! go learn to treat girls nicely! useless dog!

FOR JO!

2006-08-16T06:29:00.000-07:00

Jo you kept pestering me to update my blog! this is for you! hmm, today was a good day! but not in school, went jamming with SAGE man. coolness. ally was laughing, she always is, hetty and i was dancing while playing, it was awesome, and emu was just hitting the drums really hard! ally sing louder! haha. take care bandies! see you tmr. and bye ya'll!

2006-08-13T22:29:00.000-07:00

Im lazy to blog, haha. well, nicole's party was fucking awesome! drinks there was good! had lotsa fun! and mitch was the best la! fucking took so many drinks la! and i took home a bottle of bombay sapphire! than there was kc's party, it was suppose to be a surprise party, but in the end he found out, but he just played along. haha. it was really fun! hope to see ya'll soon! take care bye!

IM HAPPY!

2006-08-10T10:39:00.000-07:00

Today was quite a pleasant day man, great things happened! well, i am just happy, some people might know why. haha. anyways later is nicole's birthday bbq, it'll be fun, hope there wont be any shit happening to screw things up! i have something in mind already whoever wanna fuck things up! and i wont let anything happen to Andy Pandy! alright, good night, bye!

piercings!

2006-07-24T09:22:00.000-07:00

i just pierced my nose again, which i poerced two days ago together with my tongue. mr kevin mark anthony pierced my nose and tongue for me. haha. i pierced my nose at a shop in far east plaza when the lady didnt know how to pierce! haha, she was practicing and she missed the target about three times on a paper. i didnt wanna let her pierce, so kevin took the gun from her, and got ready to pierce, i trusted him in doing a good job, and guess what, he did it professionally man, he's born to pierce for people la! haha. after that he pierced my tongue for me behind some shopping centre in town. and it is damn straight, i saved alot of money cause of him man. haha. alright will stop here. bye!

2006-07-18T20:12:00.000-07:00

im waiting for time to pass, so i can go to school when it ends, and get on with the futsal competition. while waiting for that its fucking boring, my teacher pissed me off yesterday, and some friends too! maybe im pmsing. haha. well, im starting to live life normally again, which i think its a good thing. but somethings cant be helped, only close friends know what are my bad habits. but i'll do my best to stop that shit! one particular one only. see ya'll soon!

living life in the fast lane!

2006-07-05T00:16:00.000-07:00

My life is passing so fast, with all the troubles and everything i regret in life, i seem to be coping with things, but at the back of my mind, there are things still bothering me. If only ya'll could understand how i feel, but no one will. thats the sad thing, i will be suffering on my own in silence. thank you for trying to understand me but i dont think anyone will. take care and see ya'll soon!

feels uncomfortable!!

2006-07-02T03:18:00.000-07:00

living life feels uncomfortableafter the recent incident! i hate my thoughts and my actions!! i regret! why!! why couldnt anyone help me earlier!! help me now for what?! let me rot! suckers! where were ya'llwhen i needed ya'll! now all take pity on my! take it back and shove it up you're asses!!! fuck off okay! leave me alone!

helpless!

2006-06-27T23:04:00.000-07:00

well, i feel really helpless now. i took it again. it felt better for a second! im just harming myself more and more each day when i take it. but it feels good, relief stress! joey says im talking nonsense. soorya is at my house sleeping and we're like disturbing him. im really in need of help. help me!

Then and now.

2006-06-19T10:22:00.000-07:00

hello there! im bored. soorya is at my house playing need for speed most wanted and he's showing off, when he cant even drive the car properly!! haha! wel today was a pretty good day, when at night was the best part when soorya wanted to beat an old man! who wanted to sell fake ciggs to us! haha. and congrats akira! you know why. so im going now take care ya'll. bye!

Fuck off!!

2006-06-14T13:28:00.000-07:00

bastards! im like so fucking bored and stressed out!! read alot of things and now im thinking of a lot of shit!! joey please wake up! i wanna get out of the house! i need someone to talk to! its so fucking sickening! must there be people who are so so contradicting! got balls, tell the truth! say you dont like the person! if the person cant accept it than so be it, if not why keep it in your heart and carry on with life and pretend to like the person! so fucked up! screw this world! fuckers!!

2006-06-14T01:00:00.000-07:00

hello people. im at home now cause i woke up late. was supposed to follow joey and jing hui to the subcourt, but i over slept. and now im damn bored. well, joey and jing hui are on their way back now. we're going to the gym at joey's house, we're all in to building our body all of a sudden. hahaha! thanks to Jing hui. we did the same thing yesterday, go to the gym, than went for a swim, after that we slacked at the pool side for awhile had a good talk with jing hui while waiting for joey to come back. than we went for dinner, met Wan after that with tanaka and wan's girlfriend. pretty fun day yesterday. hope it'll be fun again today. take care ya'll. bye!

2006-06-10T23:11:00.000-07:00

well, i just came back from muthu's house and im fucking tired, did a lot of shit at his house. went down to walk walk and do stupid things. funniest part was vikram, soorya and i went up to some bangla who was sleeping and woke him up, talked nonsense to him and than asked him for his work permit. he looked damn blurr! haha! and than we went to like some ghostly place that was damn boring and disturbing. yupp. after that went back to muthu's house and we started cooking. and after eating we all fell asleep. except joey. sad case. im going to sleep now. bye!

madness

2006-05-18T12:12:00.000-07:00

hello im like so bored staying awake like an owl, akira i'll win you!! you'll sleep first and lose to me sucker!! haha. we'll today was a normal day. woke up late didnt go to school have my reasons, met joey first and than akira later. yupp. we went to slack. as usual. ha. but slacking is fun stuff, rather than staying at home to rot to death. and now at 3.15 am im doing this nonsense. hahaha. before this i was having supper at khalifah, with akira, and than going to his house later. no sleep for me. haha. anyways i wanna fuck off and do my stuff now. bye!!

2006-05-15T02:39:00.000-07:00

hello mother fuckers!! how are all of ya'll. my blog is a secret haha. not many people know about it. i like the picture of me with akira there! haha. how cool is it huh? well, im having fun and lots of freedom being single. no shit to worry about! take care ya'll!

2006-02-10T14:38:00.000-08:00

2006-02-09T21:32:00.000-08:00

hello. i finally did you blog. credits go to me! (: ha. not shy ah. anyways, you're next to me. how are you? playing the guitar is fun right? ha. RIGHT. kay i love you, alot alot alot. BYEBYE.

love, Nadine.